How To Annoy Your Grandma

Today I think I discovered what it is that truly gets under my grandma’s skin. Lately I’ve been kind of lazy when it comes to shaving. I figured I’m a17 and the kind of messy facial hair look is in so maybe I could just leave it for a bit. I was sitting in the car with her today and my face started itching (like it tends to do when you have an over-growth of hair on it) so I started scratching it and man did she go insane. She told me if I scratched it one more time she was going to ground me I kid you not. Than I was being sarcastic and I said “If Obama becomes president I’m not taking my anti-seizure meds. Free health care for everybody!” now that I can understand her going ballistic about, than again she should know by now I am sarcastic about a lot of things. I may rebel though I haven’t decided yet I am still debating on if I want to shave or not and I probably will because damn this thing is really itchy I don’t know how my uncle can put up with it. BEARDS SUCK!

Busy Busy Busy

All of a sudden for some reason I just feel soooo busy! I went out last weekend all weekend practically and the same goes for this weekend. Last Friday I went out to eat with a few of my friends, which I don’t need to be eating out so much I swear at my job I have so much food piled up in the fridge from take out places it’s not even funny. Then on Saturday I went to the Zoo with my grandparents and my little sister Baylie. We walked a lot I didn’t realize how big the zoo in New Orleans actually was. I remember going as a child whenever we’d visit from Jersey, but I guess over the years they just kept adding stuff and man it was torture. I had my SLR camera with me and just having it around my neck and everything it was just miserable. Also wearing flip-flops is not ideal I am sticking to my Converse from now on. No more just hurrying and sliding on sandals I will take the extra time out to tie a few shoe laces. Than Sunday we did the usual go to 11 o’clock mass and it was kind of the only day I really got to relax and I need to learn to relax more. My doctor actually says he believes stress may be a factor in triggering my seizures so I need to find things to relieve my stress. Uh yeah right I am 17 years old there’s no such thing as being “stress free” especially since I just learned in the state of Louisiana I have to be seizure free for at least 6 months and I have to have a doctors note before I can drive again so currently my license is non-existent.  Also if I do decide to drive and I have a seizure behind the wheel and cause an accident…my insurance will not cover it. Awesome right? See that’s stressful right there! Anyways before I start STRESSING myself out I got my boa constrictor today!!!! I did finally decide to get the snow boa. I am one that really appreciates animals (my grandpa is a vet how could I not?) and this has to be one of the most beautiful creatures I have ever seen. My grandma who really doesn’t care for reptiles even mentioned how stunning he was. It was actually really hard coming up with a name and my grandpa wouldn’t help (he was being a butt) so I just named him Noa Boa. Makes sense to me. Anyways tomorrow I am going to the French Quarter with my friend to take some pictures of her and I’m sure I’ll take pictures of other things. I really want to get to St. Louis Cathedral, but being that she’s not very religious I doubt it will happen, but we will see.

Well It Started Off Bad and Ended Just the Same

I woke up this morning with a stopped up nose and I thought my nose was starting to run, but than I wiped it with a napkin and saw blood. How nice. Way to start off the day. It didn’t last long though so I can’t complain. Than I went to my grandpa’s place of business where I will be doing most of my home schooling. It’s closer to home and I will have someone around to watch me just to make sure I don’t have a seizure and accidentally kill myself It could happen. It was quiet at first until his customers started to show up and than it got loud. My grandpa is a vet so you can imagine some of the noises that go on in there. They also have a cat that just roams the halls as it pleases and anyone who knows me knows I hate cats! Just seeing it walking down the hall past the office door made me want to throw my text book at it just to hear it shriek and run away. I know I’m really mean. I did manage though to get my schooling done and after we finished my grandpa let me go out into the lobby and just whenever they needed me they could come grab me and show me what to do. I actually had to hold down a dog today while they muzzled him and it was really scary. I think he may have been possessed, but I’m not quite sure Than when it was time to leave he informs me that he wants to go try and absentee vote. Bad idea they had a line out the door so he said forget that he’ll try another day. It’s kind of sad though that there’s only one voting place where we live. Lame! Anyways I’m home now and I am sooooo exhausted! I know I didn’t do anything remotely interesting or difficult, but still it wore me out.

Why Am I Here?

Recently I was diagnosed with Juvenile Myoclonic Epilepsy. I was really depressed at first because it was a lot to deal with. I had to realize that while the medication they gave me does control my seizure’s it will not prevent them from happening 100%. After I had one of my more severe seizures at school I decided the best thing for me to do was to be home schooled and to reject all college acceptance letters from out of state colleges. I had to basically start all over again from scratch. Luckily for me I was accepted to a college close to home so my grandmother won’t have to worry too much about me having to drive long distances (recently there actually was a man who had a seizure while driving and his vehicle ran into a bunch of innocent tailgater’s) or being in a dorm room alone. Since starting my medication I have had no clonic-tonic seizures (formerly known as Grand-Mal seizures) though I do still experience what they call absence seizures every so often. With that being said I decided to start this journal to give me a place to write what’s on my mind. Sometimes I do feel very alone and I do tend to bottle up my emotions because I feel like no one really understands what goes on for me on a daily basis. This blog I am hoping will help me overcome that by trying to get everything off my chest so I can just live my life without worrying if anyone can comprehend my condition because it’s there in my blog. I understand me and I’m sure there are other people out there who do also. I want to be able to see that I am not alone and that everyone out there has their own issues that they deal with and that nobody’s life is perfect. Hopefully after a while I’ll be able to look back on this and draw some kind of strength from it, but only time will tell.