No Motivation

I haven’t updated this thing in forever! Now here’s the part where I make up all these lame excuses for why. Bottom line I’m just not that interested anymore. I went back to regular schooling (I’m in class as we speak and my teacher is definitely glaring at me) and it’s been consuming most of my time. I still work part-time with my grandpa and I’ve lately become really into my story and Animal Crossing City Folk. Most addicting game ever made and also the dumbest. I mean who really gets a kick out of talking to animals and fishing all day? Apparently I do! so there are my excuses take them or leave them either way I could care less!

Ha Ha!!!!

Barack Obama, the lead Presidential Democratic Party candidate, is for
banning all guns in America .  He is considered by those who have dealt
with him as a bit more than just a little self-righteous.

At a recent rural elementary school assembly in East Texas , he asked
the audience for total quiet.  Then, in the silence, he started to
slowly clap his hands once every few seconds, holding the audience in
total silence.

Then he said into the microphone, ‘Children, every time I clap my hands
together, a child in America dies from gun violence.’

Then, little Richard Earl, with a proud East Texas drawl, pierced the
quiet and said:  ‘Well, dumb-ass, stop clapping!‘

Well It Started Off Bad and Ended Just the Same

I woke up this morning with a stopped up nose and I thought my nose was starting to run, but than I wiped it with a napkin and saw blood. How nice. Way to start off the day. It didn’t last long though so I can’t complain. Than I went to my grandpa’s place of business where I will be doing most of my home schooling. It’s closer to home and I will have someone around to watch me just to make sure I don’t have a seizure and accidentally kill myself It could happen. It was quiet at first until his customers started to show up and than it got loud. My grandpa is a vet so you can imagine some of the noises that go on in there. They also have a cat that just roams the halls as it pleases and anyone who knows me knows I hate cats! Just seeing it walking down the hall past the office door made me want to throw my text book at it just to hear it shriek and run away. I know I’m really mean. I did manage though to get my schooling done and after we finished my grandpa let me go out into the lobby and just whenever they needed me they could come grab me and show me what to do. I actually had to hold down a dog today while they muzzled him and it was really scary. I think he may have been possessed, but I’m not quite sure Than when it was time to leave he informs me that he wants to go try and absentee vote. Bad idea they had a line out the door so he said forget that he’ll try another day. It’s kind of sad though that there’s only one voting place where we live. Lame! Anyways I’m home now and I am sooooo exhausted! I know I didn’t do anything remotely interesting or difficult, but still it wore me out.

Why Am I Here?

Recently I was diagnosed with Juvenile Myoclonic Epilepsy. I was really depressed at first because it was a lot to deal with. I had to realize that while the medication they gave me does control my seizure’s it will not prevent them from happening 100%. After I had one of my more severe seizures at school I decided the best thing for me to do was to be home schooled and to reject all college acceptance letters from out of state colleges. I had to basically start all over again from scratch. Luckily for me I was accepted to a college close to home so my grandmother won’t have to worry too much about me having to drive long distances (recently there actually was a man who had a seizure while driving and his vehicle ran into a bunch of innocent tailgater’s) or being in a dorm room alone. Since starting my medication I have had no clonic-tonic seizures (formerly known as Grand-Mal seizures) though I do still experience what they call absence seizures every so often. With that being said I decided to start this journal to give me a place to write what’s on my mind. Sometimes I do feel very alone and I do tend to bottle up my emotions because I feel like no one really understands what goes on for me on a daily basis. This blog I am hoping will help me overcome that by trying to get everything off my chest so I can just live my life without worrying if anyone can comprehend my condition because it’s there in my blog. I understand me and I’m sure there are other people out there who do also. I want to be able to see that I am not alone and that everyone out there has their own issues that they deal with and that nobody’s life is perfect. Hopefully after a while I’ll be able to look back on this and draw some kind of strength from it, but only time will tell.